They're supposed to go off to wherever cardboard moving boxes go tomorrow morning, and I still have not fully packed yet.
And of course, being me, what is greatest problem while packing? Books. Everything else I've packed, shirts, dresses, bags, shoes, I've thoroughly convinced myself I well and truly must have at university. And whereas I can weigh 20-odd bits of clothing and have it only come to a kilo and a half, I weigh 10 books on my scale and it comes to 3 and a half.
I have already (with much pain) chucked out Isabel Allende, said goodbye to The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time and Lord of the Flies and I refuse to part with anything else. I mean really, I DO have to bring Wuthering Heights with me, and I HAVE to bring Wicked by Gregory Maguire since I bought that with my own money and and and the list of excuses go on.
Sadly, due to the 50kg limit I've got (who knew clothes weighed so bloody much?) I've had to ditch my electric guitar and amp, since that takes up 15 or so kilos on its own, and am only bringing my acoustic (no prospect of joining a totally cool and awesome find-myself band in uni then).
Looking around at my room that currently resembles a cross between a natural disaster and the aftermath of Chernobyl, I realise just how much stuff we accumulate in our lives, and since I only moved here in 2000, I only have ten year's worth. What if I had lived here since birth? I don't want to leave this stuff behind. All my trinkets that serve no purpose, all my weird bits of paper I've scribbled on and not thrown away, old exercise books...they'll all have to stay. And I'll be leaving, leaving these four red walls and this big comfy bed and my organised chaos for a tiny dorm room with bunk beds and three other people that I have to share with.
And I won't be back again for a whole year, since flying home to see the family is a tad hard if you're in America and they're in Asia, and you're a poor uni student.
Roll your clothes and use vacuum bags! And feel fortunate that you have a room waiting with all your old belongings. My family (including my parents who have left 'Nam) moved to a new apartment in Singapore last summer and I... I no longer have a room. ;_;
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